Mom, dad, aunt jane and erin and roberto were all there for T-day helping out (along with aunts and uncles who live in IL) and yesterday the decision was made to take grandma in ambulance to emergency room because she was not doing well (not eating, not very responsive) and because it would help with the process of getting her into a place with more advanced care than the recently hired live-in care provider could give her.
When I talked to mom and dad late last night, grandma was showing a tiny sign of improvement since being in the nursing home. time will tell. Still not 100% clear what is going on. Seems likely that she may just be communicating that she is ready to be with Grandpa Snell.
I ask that she be in your thoughts and prayers for no suffering and integrity with living or dying, whichever direction she choses in these next few days. I leave Sunday-Tuesday to visit with her, unless I hear something drastic has changed before then.
I think we all are doing ok with this. She has lived a wonderful, full, rich and long life. We are blessed she got to meet Luca (just last week), Sam and Addie. She knows she is loved and everything possible has been done to avoid her having to leave the home where she and Grandpa Snell raised their 4 kids and deeply impacted their grandkids. It has been a gift that she could be home for so long and now it is good to know she has a higher level of care that she needs.
The hardest part is going to be going to IL and not staying at the farm, a place so deeply connected to fond memories, smells, and childhood fun with my sister, cousins, aunts, uncles, and family.
Thank goodness for little ones who remind us that along with the pain of having to let go of certain traditions is the joy of forming new ones.
Love
Jess
